Deck the Halls With Boughs of Stress

I posted this on my Instagram account a few weeks ago:

It is so true. Stress, especially stress brought on by others, can make it so hard to stay positive and feel good about yourself. It strips you of your defenses and makes you vulnerable to more abuse which in turn creates more stress. It’s a vicious cycle that will eventually break you. Unless you can get out. The problem is, sometimes it’s difficult to just walk away. Sometimes you just have to endure it until you can move on. The trick is to not loose sight of your own self worth while you are searching for a way out. That’s so very hard. 

In my case, I have to constantly remind myself that the issues I am encountering are not MY issues. They are someone else’s issues and I just happen to be the focus of their insecurities or whatever it is they are struggling with. 

I am good at what I do. I know that, but I need to constantly remind myself of this almost every 10 minutes just so I don’t get sucked into whatever power play is going on at any given moment. 

I wish people didn’t have so much ego. Go talk to a therapist, go rock climbing, or join a club or something and get that shit worked out, but I see no place for this transference onto others.  Lately, this struggle has been creeping into my life in the form of anxiety, stress, nightmares, and illness as a result of above. It’s so hard to let the negativity just roll off your back without living in fear of what is going to greet you tomorrow. What awesome rumor or report is going to be told today? What is going to be discussed behind closed doors to give the impression that I am not performing today? It’s a wonderful feeling <sarcasm> to be greeted with every evening while trying to enjoy dinner or a glass of wine. 

I’m good at what I do. I’m good at what I do. I’m good at what I do. I’m good at what I do. I’m good at what I do. If I say it enough, maybe I can start to believe it again. 

REVIEW: Whole Lava Love Face Exfoliator

All I can say is, thank goodness I wasn’t wearing socks when I tried this for the first time, because they would have been knocked off!!!

Whole Lava Love Volcanic Ash Face Exfoliator is amazing. It is  charcoal powder, sugar beads, and volcanic ash combined with natural tea tree and mint oils! So, amazing. 

The product was a little difficult to use out of a tiny sample foil, but once I figured out what was going on, all I could do was talk to myself about how great it smelled!

The tea tree and mint were so relaxing, and again, it washed off so easily!  The charcole, lava, and sugar beads mixed with the oils and went onto my damp face very nicely. It was gritty, but felt like the same grit I got with my morraccan facials when I lived in Abu Dhabi. I’ve had a difficult time duplicating that texture. It’s a very fine grit texture that doesn’t hurt or burn.  I can’t believe I’ve found it finally!  In addition to the gentle texture of this product, the smell is amazing. I know I’ve said this already, but it was that great!  

The best part is, now, my face is glowing! I followed it up with the awesom dynamic duo of Never Grow Up Anti Aging Serum, and Never Grow Up Face Creme, then a quick pass of my As Good As Gold skin stick under my eyes. You guys, my face feels like velvet. It’s amazing. 

Maybe My Organic Isn’t the Same as the USDA’s?

I have to tell you guys what just happened to me. All week, I’ve been using my Posh samples waiting for my box to arrive. I ran out of Night & Day face Creme last night. 😞 Tonight, I grabbed another face cream I have, that I actually spent a lot of money on. It’s organic, and advertises Argan and Rosewater as it’s ingredients. It’s ORGANIC (do you see the USDA Organic sticker?!?!?)…. yet, all I smell is rubbing alcohol. I never noticed that before!! My face is not moisturizer at all either. It feels tight yet a little greasy. What’s that all about? 

Now I feel like I wasted my gorgeous  Posh face wash product by basically removing it with perfumed rubbing alcohol! 

I absolutely can’t wait until my box gets here!!

Review – Perfectly Posh BFF Face Wash, Giving me Life Face Mask, and Night and Day Face Cream

I’ve been admiring my friend, Erin’s, Perfectly Posh posts on instagram for a while now.  The packaging is so darn pretty, and the products are simple. I’ve been a Lush junkie for years now, but lately, their products have been burning my skin, and the smells are just too overwhelming. As a result, I’ve been searching for a natural replacement. Welcome Perfectly Posh!

I requested some samples, and received them this afternoon. I was so excited opening this package!  In my sample package were BFF Face Wash, Giving me Life Face Mask, Night & Day Facial Moisturizer, Fall Out Girl Chunk Bar, Sugar Mama Body Scrub, and Hot Mess Hand Creme. 

I immediately ripped open the BFF face wash and was so happy to find out the face wash is peppermint based! I’ve had a headache for two days now and peppermint always helps me feel better. The wash is gritty, so it exfoliates, but fine enough, I used it on my lips. I did not, however, use it on my eyes. I actually let the wash sit for a few minutes so I could enjoy the smell a little longer! It rinsed off very easily with one pass of a warm wash cloth (okay, hot wash cloth, but wherever). 

Next was the Giving me Life Face Mask. Oh my goodness! IT HAS TEA TREE OIL IN IT!!!! I LOVE tea tree oil!!! It’s one of two essential oils that I carry in my purse with me at all times.  Bug bite? Tea tree oil! Scrape? Tea tree oil! Tired? Tea tree oil! See a pattern here? 

I slathered on a thin layer, as per the directions, went and took some selfies, and watched the voice. 

As it dried, I enjoyed the soothing aroma of the tee tree oil, and felt my face tighten up. The mask washed off so easily too! One wipe with that hot wash cloth, and it was gone! I can’t describe how soft it was coming off. It was like butter. My face didn’t feel dry or tight after wiping the mask off either. 

I cut open the Night & Day Face Creme and actually giggled when I realized it was lavender based! I hit the relaxation trifecta! Imagine my excitement after the hell week (yes, I’m aware it’s only Tuesday) I’ve had. This face creme, oh my goodness, this face creme….so soft, so cool. 

Now I’m sitting here trying not to continually touch my face because it’s so soft. I imagine I’m all bright and shiny (in a good way) too! 

I’m absolutely looking forward to tomorrow so I can use these products again!  Is it too early to confess that I may be in love?

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Review – Younique Touch Mineral Foundation 

Let me preface this by saying, I have really good skin. No blemishes, and very little unevenness. I wear foundation to create a smooth and even palate, not to cover anything. I am a 42-year-old mother living in sunny Southern California. My beauty ritual involves whatever bath and body works liquid hand soap is by my sink, coconut oil for eye makeup removal, and the basic old school oil of Olay (if I remember).

Things that are important to me in a foundation are: no smell, lightweight coverage, color matching, and staying power.

In cones Younique Touch Liquid Foundation. I traded two eyelash kits that didn’t work out for me for this foundation. I’ve had this foundation for about a week, and have used it almost every day since I received it.


You guys. This foundation is awesome. It’s so silky smooth. It feels like velvet going on, and it stays all day. My face feels clean and moisturized, and just smooth. The light weight formula lends itself to layering, if needed. We went out on Friday night, and wanted a more smooth look, so I did 2 layers of foundation. It didn’t cake up, and it didn’t feel like I had a lot of foundation on my face. I could touch my face and nothing would cone off either!

Overall, I love this foundation. I’m not thrilled about the price, but it is in the same range as other designer lines. I just need to get over it. Especially with my aging skin. I will definitely buy this foundation again. I love it!

I get mine here: Leah May – Younique


Learning new habits

So, if you don’t know this about me already, now you do…I’m overweight. Growing up, I was a size zero (0, Nada, not, nothing) albeit an anorexia induced size 0, but a size 0 nonetheless. Now, I struggle daily with the distorted body image I have. One little pang of hunger and the spiral starts. I think, “oh boy, here it comes, something I can control.”  Then the panic hits. “No. I can’t go back there”, but the temptation is still pretty strong and I combat that by eating too much. Again, it’s a control issue.

In my effort to attempt to loose this weight the right way, I am working on my eating habits. Breakfast is a biggie for me because I don’t eat it. Usually it’s three coffees and all my medications. I know it’s not good for my metabolism to not eat breakfast.  I’ve been making these egg muffins lately, and I love them. I put a little tapatillo on them and have an awesome breakfast!

I take 1/4 head of broccoli and 1/4 head of cauliflower and break them up in the Cuisinart.

Mix in 2 eggs, and 1/4 cup of mozzarella cheese, garlic powder, onion powder, salt, and pepper.

Line the bottom of 10 muffin tin openings with the mixture, then cake in a 350 oven for 15 minutes.

Brown 8 oz of breakfast sausage and drain then sprinkle on top of cooked vegetables.

Break an egg over each.

Bake at 350 for another 8-12 minutes depending on how well you like your egg yolks baked. (I like mine like a soft gel).

Yum! I’ve added a spicy Cajun seasoning to each, and a little salt and pepper. I take two to work every morning.

If there’s any left over veggie mix, I use it to make “pizza crust”. Good stuff. Enjoy!


The Second First Day of College

I am so ridiculously proud of this young man. Ian  Today, was his (second) first day of College at a new school, Mira Costa College.

His story starts many years ago, when he was in Kindergarten.  At the time, he was so advanced, that he tested out of 1st grade.  He entered second grade as a 6 year old, and didn’t even skip a beat.  He’s always been big for his age, so no one really noticed he was younger than everyone in his class.  Fast forward to 7th grade when we moved back to the USA, and he was moved up again, going from first term 7th grade to second term 8th grade.  Still, no one noticed because he was tall, mature, and held his own with the other kids in the grade. He entered the University of Arizona 4 months after his 17th birthday.  If that isn’t something to be proud of, I don’t know what is.  The year away didn’t go well though.  But, my goodness!  He was barely 17 when he picked up and moved 7 hours away on his own!  He gave it the good ‘ol college try (pun intended), and found some things out about himself.

Today, though, I am more proud than I was the day he started at U of A.  Why?  Well, because he  gets it now, and he did it on his own.  He came home from U of A broken, physically for sure, but I think a little mentally too.  He dug himself out of a devastating situation, got a couple of jobs, and enrolled in College closer to home.  He paid for his own units, and books, and has become almost 100% independent.  He still lives at home, with the plan to save more money so he can move out on his own with a cushion and a plan.  He buys his own food, prepares his own meals, does his own laundry, keeps his living area neat and clean, and he helps out when he can.  He’s working so hard and he is happy.  I don’t know a lot of kids his age that could have dealt with the simultaneous loss of his life long dream due to what he thought was an irreversible injury, and having to come home from college to tell his parents he failed for the very first time in his life, the way he has.  There were so many ways this could have gone beyond sideways, but he kept his focus, and he is “getting shit done” (his catch phrase), and I am so very proud of him.

We are all looking forward to one day soon when the Neurosurgeon calls to schedule his spinal surgery, but need to have an allergy test first, as the medal used in the artificial disc has a tiny bit of nickle in it.  Skin contact with nickle causes raised welts that itch, so he’s been instructed to see an allergist just to make sure the artificial disc won’t cause an allergic reaction internally.  Just like with his father, it is one step at a time.  This time though, he’s got a good base going and has his priorities in order.  I am so excited to see what barriers this young man breaks down next!  I love you my lion hearted boy!