I get this feeling all the time. While I am happy – I think – I can’t help but feel like complete and utter bliss is just beyond my reach. It is just beyond the length of chain that binds me in my own little world and I just can’t reach out and grab it.
Here, I preach to my friends that their happiness is all that matters. That they need to take their current situation and decide is they want to spend the rest of their life like they are now and I am not living my own words. Do as I say, not as I do.
If I were to die tomorrow, I would die with an unfulfilled heart. I would die unhappy, but I wouldn’t know why.