I am having a really really really bad day

Don’t take anything I am about to type personally. Take it as a lady who is having a really bad day…

I need to go home. This is not my home. I miss grass and the sound of lawn mowers and the smell of a freshly cut lawn. I miss cook outs and neighbors who talk to you. I miss being able to look someone in the eye and say hello to them in the supermarket. I miss being able to pick up the phone and call my mom/friends any time I need to. I miss sheets that fit my bed properly. I miss duct tape that actually sticks to things. I miss 3-ring binders that are all the same size. I miss being able to find everything I need at wal-mart and knowing that if it breaks or is made poorly, I can take it back and replace it without a big hassle. I miss the American flag. I miss real music on the radio. I miss the news. I miss being able to go outside during the day. I miss rain. I miss huge thunderstorms. I miss roses. I miss hummingbirds. I miss butterflies. I miss being able to talk to anyone. I miss customer service in the mall. I miss seeing the sweet faces of down syndrome kids looking up at me from their carts at the grocery store. I miss walking to the corner store. I miss having friends.

I am so lonely. I am so sad. Even though most people here speak English, they still can’t communicate in English. I haven’t had a real conversation with anyone beside my husband since I’ve been here. No one here understands me. I can’t even talk to the ladies at the make up counter. I am so lonely. Even the expats I meet are different. I just don’t feel like I can be me here. I am so lonely. I really need to go home. I am having such a bad day.

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4 thoughts on “I am having a really really really bad day

  1. Boy do I know this feeling (even though I didn’t move overseas). Feel free to call my anytime you need a chat (just understand that I may be half asleep and unintelligible) 🙂 Love you and miss you bunches

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  2. whats with the 3-ring binders. although im from the uae and lived here all my life, i find the 4 ring binders very ugly. and its not easy finding a 3 ring binder, and if u do, then finding paper that has 3 punched holes is even harder.im sorry you are homesick. when im on my summer vacation (outside the country) i also miss the sand dunes and camels and tinted cars and the strong smell of arabic perfume.

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  3. Ha ha ha!!! The three ring binder thing was just something that was bothering me that day. I was trying to put together some papers that I wanted to keep and all I could find were the two ring binders and they were all very tall binders and then I couldn’t find a two-hole hole punch…. It was just a day, you know? I am feeling better now. We are headed to Florida in a few days and I will be “home” for the forth of july and my wedding anniversary. I am VERY happy about that. I do still love it here though. You just have those moments where nothing is going right and you start getting home sick. I am glad you guys understand.

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